The Opera Populaire

Through some recent incidents in my life, I have seriously come to wonder if I am really a guy trapped in this girlish body hahahaah. Nearly lost my patience at my mom the whole of yesterday finalising our holiday plans to Hong Kong. I understand that she is busy and I thot she had left the planning to me, but she kept coming up with new ideas and I had to run around finding out more abt those new ideas. Finally I decided to sit and sulk and not be the slave any longer, spent of all energy. I am sorry for being so rude, but I found out that I am like a guy in e sense that, if I had already planned nicely wat to do and ppl keep coming up with new ideas, I get extremely impatient. Nevertheless, my girlish nature finally took over after some silent prayers and I decided to go with her wishes once more today.

But this is not e only time. As Yanchun put it, I handle things in a very "man" way. I do realize that I dun much prefer going toilets in a grp, though I usually follow along with e crowd when they ask me. Toilet bonding struck me as being a bit strange at times, chatting while preening in front of the mirror. I can't process more than 1 info at a given point in time, although at times there r exceptions. I have a violent streak inside me, like I'll threaten to beat ppl up if they cross me, though I usually dun mean it except in a joking way. I like and excel in "manly" things like footdrill.

Hmm..but yeah all these viewpoints could be the result of over-exposure to pop psychology books like "Man are from Mars and Women are from Venus" and "Why Men dun Listen and Women Can't Read Maps". These books give a good generalised analysis of the differences between man and woman, but they oso cautioned that there r no clear cut division in the character of both genders. Men can possess certain "feminine" traits like compassion and women can be aggressive (like yours truly here haha) too. Think one shd not worry that u r not a man/ woman just becos u dun possess e characteristics that these books think u shd have. I have never really worried that I may turn guys off with my boyish demenour haha cos I know I am not abnormal, contrary to my mom who always tell me,"Sit in a more ladylike manner, would you?", "Stop laughing like that!" At the end of the day, I think I still possess a good amount of feminine traits to balance by boyish traits.

Jill Lowe, who conducted grooming courses in St. Nicholas last time, said something I'll never forget,"Nobody takes a woman who dresses like a man and think like a woman seriously. If you want to be take seriously, you must dress like a woman and think like a man." I din understand it then, but I think I do now.