The Opera Populaire

This Stephen...after having not talked to him for so long, the 1st thing he did was to ask if I wanna join his Red Cross chapter...again. Went on and on sending me his chapter newsletter, advertising how his chapter is catered to working adults etc etc. I must say that it is rather nice that we were talking over MSN and not in real life or the phone. Once he starts on anything, he doesn't stop until he thinks that he has made his point, which usually goes a long circle. At least he types slowly so there is only so much he can say over MSN kekekee.

I do miss doing altruistic work like 1st Aid duty. Those were the times I truly felt alive and purposeful. But I have my doubts abt joining Stephen's chapter becos he usually makes things more bureaucratic than altruistic. Though I do believe that even non-profit organisation like the Red Cross needs some form of administration, but excessive micro-management can be harmful to altruistic zeal, esp with a Chairman with such forceful personality. Besides, right now I dun have that much time (to know why, one must know how Stephen conducts meetings) nor the health to do 1st Aid duties.

I dun dislike my god-bro :) I have entertained him a lot in the past, so much so that his gf once asked me why din I consider him as a bf then. It's just that erm...think I prefer communication to be 2-way :p Stephen is a nice guy at the end of the day, having been the joker (who recycles jokes) who cheered me up during my time in hall. He once took a photo of my matric card and edited it to become "Underage Matriculation Card". Kelvin used to tell me abt the times when he and Mervin went to Stephen's house and Stephen would teach them all the ways u can win a gal's heart, based on his research. He always boasted that he won over the heart of the gal who wasn't looking around for a bf *roll eyes*

Been at work for 3 days now. I am officially the free-est person in the workplace :) Felt bad cos thot that perhaps I could have helped my this collegue more, though I have done my part. They told me I shd leave on time while I still can :p Sneaked off on time today.

Feel glad that they r such open ppl, telling me all abt certain working conditions there frankly, though they kept reminding one another to quit scaring this newcomer. This sweet lady in my department knocked on my desk cubicle and made this eating action to remind to to go for lunch. So sweet! My supervisor said jokingly that it's easy to recognize my footsteps apparently. Yeah I did realize that I walk very loudly for some reason. Perhaps I always land heavily on my heels, the legacy of my footdrill days. Better tone it down cos it sounds very irritating to me. speaking of feet, my feet is groaning under the blisters inflicted by my new pair of working shoes. Ouch! Then my colleque joked that I was scaring her, sitting so quietly staring at her doing her work, like a ghost. These made me feel a bit better cos haven't been feeling too great emotionally these days.

Guess sometimes u have done all u could but not everything in life goes the way u want it. Had internally rebelled against it, but now think it's time to let go and let God. Que sera sera. The ball is no longer in my court. I am finally surrendering.

I feel happy to see my Mom and bro again. He is leaving for Aust on Sat and already I feel like crying. It will be so quiet and lonely here from now on. My Mom said I am always too melancholic in nature.