The Opera Populaire

*Sob sob* Got my laptop back from so-called monitoring and the IT guy told me it is fine. But now it has gone back to its bonkers self and I am typing these on a screen that looks like photo negatives. I am seriously beginning to believe that I am an IT jinx. Time to buy a new laptop and PC.

First weekday of total freedom. Kinda lost, but I think I'll go back NUS to catch up with some peeps and profs first.

Just read a fren's blog, abt his weird dream. Had a super weird, vivid dream a few nights ago, too. I dreamt that my colleague, Jean's family insisted on finding husbands for us! Now this is really strange becos Jean has a steady bf in real-life, but in the dream, her parents decided that she shd marry someone else. And the strangest is that, I was dressed in a wedding gown, not her! Although she was supposed to get married on that day. Everyone kept asking me wasn't I supposed to be walking down the aisle and I was telling them this is all a grave misunderstanding and Jean is the true bride for the day. And I caught a glimpse of that guy I was supposed to marry and remembered thinking he wasn't too bad since he was actually nice enough to smile at me, but the concept of arranged marriage is still strange to me. I woke up rolling my eyes at the absurpdity of it all. Tsk tsk.

Had a talk with Uncle Jamie and felt very encouraged by having an elder Christian sharing his insights abt Godly notion of sexual intimacy. It may sound conservative to others, but I think it makes a lot of sense. Many youngsters these days believe that, as long as they r both in love, it is fine to engage in sex b4 marriage. But the truth is that, sexual act bonds two ppl like nothing else and it may be delusional in a sense becos the experience is so intense according to those who have exp it, that it may override other more solid indicators of a strong relationship, like communication. It is more difficult, not to mention painful, to leave a relationship where both parties have engaged in sex. In view of this point, "testing" sexual compatibility by engaging in sex b4 marriage also falls through. If you find out that you are both not compatible sexually, are you simply gonna forsake marrying the person? At the end of the day, the losing party is the gal.

Uncle Jamie told me something shocking as well. He said that, the truth is that, guys like to boast abt their "conquests". The end product is a damaging reputation to the girl while the guy has nothing to lose. Ok, perhaps that may not be true for all, but I am certain that, to some extent, the guy loses respect when he gets something so easily. And, while ppl are becoming more broad-minded, guys still find it difficult to accept girls who have been with someone else. Does anyone actually like to have their performance compared to their partner's previous partner(s)?

So I guess someone who is worthy of your love at the end of the day is someone who is willing to pay the price, so-called, of delayed gratification. Uncle Jamie assured me that, the sexual encounter that takes place after both parties have made a commitment to each other and sealed their wedding vows, is nothing short of wonderful. Such is God's gift to us when we are faithful to His commands.