Wednesday, March 08, 2006
A Mute's Soliloquy Part II
Something seems to have snapped deep inside since Sat morning. Been praying and meditating, but my heart refused to be quiet. The term is : quiet desperation. The very issues I have been trying to avoid has caught on with me and demand to be resolved.
Perhaps if I had been born a boy, things may have be much easier. How do you balance others' expectations of you and following God's destiny? Especially if the others are the very ones who mean a lot to you in life?
Sometimes I think I shd not even try, since wat I do is not appreciated. Some have advised me that communication is the answer, but I wonder if communication can solve everything. The truth is that, my mind is a mess at this point in time. Was talking to a fren last nite and wondering if wat I said actually make sense, becos my words sounded very jumbled up to me. Hmm, come to think of it, this blog looks like a mess, too. I dunno wat I'm talking abt. It's been a long time since I felt this way.
W.W.J.D.?
Perhaps if I had been born a boy, things may have be much easier. How do you balance others' expectations of you and following God's destiny? Especially if the others are the very ones who mean a lot to you in life?
Sometimes I think I shd not even try, since wat I do is not appreciated. Some have advised me that communication is the answer, but I wonder if communication can solve everything. The truth is that, my mind is a mess at this point in time. Was talking to a fren last nite and wondering if wat I said actually make sense, becos my words sounded very jumbled up to me. Hmm, come to think of it, this blog looks like a mess, too. I dunno wat I'm talking abt. It's been a long time since I felt this way.
W.W.J.D.?
// posted by Jenn @ 12:14 PM 
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