The Opera Populaire

I was flabbergasted...I actually own a Friendster account?!? Wenjie had long ago told me she found mine and a few days ago, a new reader to my blog wanted to be added to my list. I tried to log in, confused and found that it worked!!! The only logical explanation I could come out with is that I must have created the account in a half-asleep state and thereafter clean forgot about it. Or maybe somebody wanted to hijack my identity, for watever reason. Hehehe :)

It's been raining here. Exposes the increasingly poor drainage system in the supposedly most cosmopolitan city in the country. Just a few minutes of rain and you see the beginnings of flood everywhere. That hardly ever happened in the past. Maybe I should write a letter in English to the Mayor. Even if nothing is done about it (which is very likely), at least I will have done my part.

I think I am very shy. Takes a while for me to warm up to people, especially if I have no knowledge watsoever about the topic matter. Need to broaden my exposure and knowledge, though I dunno why I am so slow to pick up some things. I have also been encouraged to air my views more. Think I do have some good ideas, but when you dun speak up, it's as good as not having them.

It is natural for humans to want to know about their future or wat to do when they face some issues in their lives. That is why ppl go to fortune-tellers or consult astrology, fengshui etc. Even years after accepting the Lord, I still have that curiosity. In the beginning of my uni life, I went to a fortune-teller. It also took me a few years to stop having the urge to consult my astrology in the newspaper or books.

I don't think I could have made the decision to stop consulting those without His grace. At one point, especially during my darkest days in JC, it was very hard to trust in God and not in astrology. I needed a tangible comfort so bad, especially when I felt ostracized by someone I cared for and oso some other ppl and it was so hard to hear it from a seemingly generic book like the Bible. Fortune-tellers and astrology books made me feel that I could gain some control over my own situation.

I don't think there was an obvious turning point when I discarded those astrology books for good and embraced God's promises as my only source of comfort. The struggle continued for some more time. But I have since crossed the line and find it much easier to refuse to look that way. I am not saying that I have since become a saint or am above anyone. It's only that I have since recognised that God's promises are sweeter to my soul than all that. After all, we are sinners who were saved by His grace :)