Tuesday, July 18, 2006
So Tired....
One of those tiring, heightened sensitivity of a few days/weeks every month, if you get what I mean :p Been simply unable to get out of bed even after my mind whizzed into action in the morning. And I have oso dozed off in the office haha. The downside to being a woman heh.
Was talking with someone about loving oneself last nite. Raine always tells me I have a prob doing that and I guess perhaps you are right. I have a prob believing that I matter, or even make a difference in anybody's life, despite knowing Christ. I always feel that ppl care more abt others than me; they would rather spend their time with someone else etc. But ever since I come back, I had been surprised and touched to hear some of my dear frens telling me they miss me and I almost always get the "So when are you coming back?" question. And some tell me so more than once! Thanks, frens dearest. I miss you guys very much, too :) And my special thanks to those who lent a listening ear and help in any form whenever I needed them down here.
But you know, human beings are sometimes the strangest creatures. When you are 1st put into an uncomfortable circumstance, you try desperately to claw your way out. But after a while you find out that you are actually pretty adaptable and so you make the best of your circumstances, until a day comes when you ask yourself if you really want to get out of it at all. Not as much becos you are sucked into the circumstances, but becos there is always a way to serve in whatever circumstances and I think choosing to escape is not always the answer.
Erm...I truly din know about the earthquake and tsunami that struck West Java until someone told me :p That should tell you something, shouldn't it? Haha that I'm safe and sound! Thank God, really, for sparing us twice in a row. Sometimes when you really think about it, you can't help but get the jitters at the close shaves.
Just thinking. I feel that a lot of my values and thoughts run contrary to a lot of ppl around me, those values that adhere to God. Sometimes to the extent of being called narrow-minded, conservative, self-imposed. Hmm. Now I dun think that "conservative" is a good term to describe my values, becos I dun base them on pure old-fashioned ideas. Sometimes what I choose to do is really a means to an end in trying to obey Him. Sometimes, it's simply an end...something I just believe cos I have put my faith in Him. Self-imposed? *Shrug* Perhaps. Depends on how you look at it. I was just chuckling while telling God,"We are very unpopular around here, hor?" Sigh. Oh well.
Was talking with someone about loving oneself last nite. Raine always tells me I have a prob doing that and I guess perhaps you are right. I have a prob believing that I matter, or even make a difference in anybody's life, despite knowing Christ. I always feel that ppl care more abt others than me; they would rather spend their time with someone else etc. But ever since I come back, I had been surprised and touched to hear some of my dear frens telling me they miss me and I almost always get the "So when are you coming back?" question. And some tell me so more than once! Thanks, frens dearest. I miss you guys very much, too :) And my special thanks to those who lent a listening ear and help in any form whenever I needed them down here.
But you know, human beings are sometimes the strangest creatures. When you are 1st put into an uncomfortable circumstance, you try desperately to claw your way out. But after a while you find out that you are actually pretty adaptable and so you make the best of your circumstances, until a day comes when you ask yourself if you really want to get out of it at all. Not as much becos you are sucked into the circumstances, but becos there is always a way to serve in whatever circumstances and I think choosing to escape is not always the answer.
Erm...I truly din know about the earthquake and tsunami that struck West Java until someone told me :p That should tell you something, shouldn't it? Haha that I'm safe and sound! Thank God, really, for sparing us twice in a row. Sometimes when you really think about it, you can't help but get the jitters at the close shaves.
Just thinking. I feel that a lot of my values and thoughts run contrary to a lot of ppl around me, those values that adhere to God. Sometimes to the extent of being called narrow-minded, conservative, self-imposed. Hmm. Now I dun think that "conservative" is a good term to describe my values, becos I dun base them on pure old-fashioned ideas. Sometimes what I choose to do is really a means to an end in trying to obey Him. Sometimes, it's simply an end...something I just believe cos I have put my faith in Him. Self-imposed? *Shrug* Perhaps. Depends on how you look at it. I was just chuckling while telling God,"We are very unpopular around here, hor?" Sigh. Oh well.
// posted by Jenn @ 11:43 AM 
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