Monday, November 06, 2006
Miracles
I had the most satisfying conversation on Sat night...with my ex. If it wasn't because of God's grace, we wouldn't have been able to do that. He had tried to re-establish contact for some time, but partially due to fear and also due to the fact that the foundation of the friendship was not really there in the 1st place, I adopted a wait-and-see attitude.
While his "core" character still remains, I saw that the Holy Spirit has changed him and there are signs that it will continue. He is committed to knowing the Lord deeper, despite his saying that he still cannot hear from God and that he doesn't read the Bible regularly nor know it well. His church frens have been addressing his concerns and helping him along. On his part, he realised that man's abilities are finite and is now relying on God.
Throughout our conversation, I also noticed the change in his attitude. He is more concerned about other people now. He apologised for his treatment of me in the past and was a true listening ear. He now thinks differently about holidaying one-on-one and sharing room with your partner. He is also taking steps to upgrade himself.
Talked for nearly 2 and a half hours, at the end of which he left me with a Bible verse to comfort me and even prayed for me. It was great to share so openly about how our lives had been in the nearly 3 yrs since we parted. I like open, no holds barred communication. Truly only after God has graciously matured us could we talk like that. And it really made me smile cos a pastor told me once during a prophecy that I will witness a lot of miracles in my life and this is indeed one!
Lotus told me about an opportunity to volunteer at MINDS and Rainbow Kids, but sadly I am not available during weekdays. But I am really thankful to her and her husband Richard for their talks about career to me.
Hanna added me to her MSN and we chatted on Fri night. She asked if I'm going back to Indonesia in December. Felt like crying because I seriously have done nothing to deserve their kind treatment of me and yet they always ask after me in emails etc. Perhaps Indonesians are indeed "warmer" than Singaporeans. While I think I'm a Singaporean at heart, a part of my identity always belongs to Indonesia because I grew up there. This ambiguity of "homeland" forms the core of my identity and I am learning to embrace that. Guess that was why I chose Eurasians as my ISM topic. Hanna asked me to teach her English and I said she could teach me Bahasa. She said that Esther and her agreed that they have mental blockage about speaking to me in Bahasa, even though I can! heehee :)
Tried to do baloon twisting on Sat, but erm...I couldn't even inflate the balloon. Hahahaha.
Had a great time having dinner with Lorraine and her family at Teochew restaurant at Keypoint. The food was good and as usual, her dad was very entertaining! Gal, I think I shd hang out with your family more for ego boost hahahaha. But yup, it was good to find out more about a line I'm thinking of pursuing from a veteran.
Despite nagging moodiness, I see good things just waiting to happen. Indeed, God's timing may seem a tad long, but when it comes, you can't help but give praise!
While his "core" character still remains, I saw that the Holy Spirit has changed him and there are signs that it will continue. He is committed to knowing the Lord deeper, despite his saying that he still cannot hear from God and that he doesn't read the Bible regularly nor know it well. His church frens have been addressing his concerns and helping him along. On his part, he realised that man's abilities are finite and is now relying on God.
Throughout our conversation, I also noticed the change in his attitude. He is more concerned about other people now. He apologised for his treatment of me in the past and was a true listening ear. He now thinks differently about holidaying one-on-one and sharing room with your partner. He is also taking steps to upgrade himself.
Talked for nearly 2 and a half hours, at the end of which he left me with a Bible verse to comfort me and even prayed for me. It was great to share so openly about how our lives had been in the nearly 3 yrs since we parted. I like open, no holds barred communication. Truly only after God has graciously matured us could we talk like that. And it really made me smile cos a pastor told me once during a prophecy that I will witness a lot of miracles in my life and this is indeed one!
Lotus told me about an opportunity to volunteer at MINDS and Rainbow Kids, but sadly I am not available during weekdays. But I am really thankful to her and her husband Richard for their talks about career to me.
Hanna added me to her MSN and we chatted on Fri night. She asked if I'm going back to Indonesia in December. Felt like crying because I seriously have done nothing to deserve their kind treatment of me and yet they always ask after me in emails etc. Perhaps Indonesians are indeed "warmer" than Singaporeans. While I think I'm a Singaporean at heart, a part of my identity always belongs to Indonesia because I grew up there. This ambiguity of "homeland" forms the core of my identity and I am learning to embrace that. Guess that was why I chose Eurasians as my ISM topic. Hanna asked me to teach her English and I said she could teach me Bahasa. She said that Esther and her agreed that they have mental blockage about speaking to me in Bahasa, even though I can! heehee :)
Tried to do baloon twisting on Sat, but erm...I couldn't even inflate the balloon. Hahahaha.
Had a great time having dinner with Lorraine and her family at Teochew restaurant at Keypoint. The food was good and as usual, her dad was very entertaining! Gal, I think I shd hang out with your family more for ego boost hahahaha. But yup, it was good to find out more about a line I'm thinking of pursuing from a veteran.
Despite nagging moodiness, I see good things just waiting to happen. Indeed, God's timing may seem a tad long, but when it comes, you can't help but give praise!
// posted by Jenn @ 12:09 PM 
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