The Opera Populaire

The past week was not good in the least; spent it in a most disgusting state of flu. I suspect it was the turtle soup I ate last week. My nose was alternatively running and blocking, a most uncomfortable sensation. And I saw three doctors and had MCs for a few days. For some reason I don't recover as quickly as I used to. Perhaps I am just getting more impatient with age. But I recently found that Traditional Chinese doctor really works, especially in healing that last bit of flu. Boiling the herbs is a bit of a hassle with all that soaking, waiting and turning up and down the fire. But at least I don't have to use coal, so it's faster. The resulting mixture often tastes revolting, especially after being left overnight and reboiled. But it works *satisfied looking Jenn*

This morning, I woke up a little early and as I lay there, I sensed God's presence stronger than I had felt since the beginning of this year. Isn't it strange that you tend to sense His nearness when you are down, but once your mood has lifted, God kind of fade into the background; not exactly gone, but just in the shadows. Missed His presence, just really missed it so. So I prayed and surrendered the issues I have been struggling with. No clear answer given, but my spirit felt so rested. Yeah, adult life is not always nice, but it is no reason to feel sad, bitter, judgemental or be cynical forevermore. Perhaps someday, in His eternity, it will all make sense somehow.

I haven't felt this way for very long. I have just been busy savouring new life, being sometimes happy, recently very shocked at certain things that happened to me. Now, something suddenly j0lted me back to a certain nostalgic past. Well, I miss those days, more than I can ever say. But life has gone on and it is impossible to turn back time. These days certain future seems to be unfolding for me. Hmm...

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