Friday, July 04, 2008
Bumming Days
Hello peeps...
Yesh...as the title suggests, I am in the midst of bumming. It seems that I have come full circle into this state once again...sigh. Certainly, things are different (things do not happen the same way twice, said that Lion in Prince Caspian) this time round. I am actually feeling edgy about not doing anything "constructive" with my time. Actually I have sent out all the resumes I could before coming back to Jakarta (with the exception of one place....which I am avoiding sending for the purpose of sanity as well as safeguarding goodwill, which will certainly diminish once they found out what I have done).
What happened was that, I had planned everything in order to culminate in pursuing a masters degree by end of July. But, once my ravaging desire to leave has sobered, I discovered that the masters degree was not what I wanted after all. Inter-state relations and security, while certainly more tolerable than Maths or even Science, are not truly my passion. And the school is another matter which I shall prefer to discuss off the cyberspace. So, the bottomline is, I have decided to find other places for pursuing higher degree while looking for work opportunities. To date, I have sent out some applications rather vigorously before coming back, but have yet to receive a positive reply (or any reply for that matter, in some cases). There is one which I will give my left arm for...if that comes to be, I will be flying far, far away. But meanwhile, back to the reality of bumming.
As I have said earlier, I do not like bumming. No longer like to feel useless. But how typical of our country I have become, to be so involved in the rat race that I forget to smell the roses. I am trying very hard to just be still and know that He is God. That He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. That He has a future for me and is in control. I was succeeding well, for one day. Yup, until I checked my emails. The prospect of unemployment and the darker than dark side looms. Yaaaargh!
Anyhow, I'll be in Bogor, the town near Jakarta formerly called Buitenzorg, this weekend for a colleague's wedding. It will be great fun I suppose. It will be the first Muslim, Javanese wedding I attend. More soon.
Yesh...as the title suggests, I am in the midst of bumming. It seems that I have come full circle into this state once again...sigh. Certainly, things are different (things do not happen the same way twice, said that Lion in Prince Caspian) this time round. I am actually feeling edgy about not doing anything "constructive" with my time. Actually I have sent out all the resumes I could before coming back to Jakarta (with the exception of one place....which I am avoiding sending for the purpose of sanity as well as safeguarding goodwill, which will certainly diminish once they found out what I have done).
What happened was that, I had planned everything in order to culminate in pursuing a masters degree by end of July. But, once my ravaging desire to leave has sobered, I discovered that the masters degree was not what I wanted after all. Inter-state relations and security, while certainly more tolerable than Maths or even Science, are not truly my passion. And the school is another matter which I shall prefer to discuss off the cyberspace. So, the bottomline is, I have decided to find other places for pursuing higher degree while looking for work opportunities. To date, I have sent out some applications rather vigorously before coming back, but have yet to receive a positive reply (or any reply for that matter, in some cases). There is one which I will give my left arm for...if that comes to be, I will be flying far, far away. But meanwhile, back to the reality of bumming.
As I have said earlier, I do not like bumming. No longer like to feel useless. But how typical of our country I have become, to be so involved in the rat race that I forget to smell the roses. I am trying very hard to just be still and know that He is God. That He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. That He has a future for me and is in control. I was succeeding well, for one day. Yup, until I checked my emails. The prospect of unemployment and the darker than dark side looms. Yaaaargh!
Anyhow, I'll be in Bogor, the town near Jakarta formerly called Buitenzorg, this weekend for a colleague's wedding. It will be great fun I suppose. It will be the first Muslim, Javanese wedding I attend. More soon.
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