Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Lost
I know most of my friends no longer blog. Indeed, in the era of Twitter, Facebook and what-have-you, personal blogs especially, are outdated. I have been following some fashion blogs and found them very inspiring for my consumerist habits. It also acts as some kind of a vent for this painful period of my life, which I hope is ending soon.
Sent in my notification letter 2 weeks ago. Instead of relief, however, I felt more lost than before. I was recommended for a job and went for the meet-up session (it felt more like that than an interview as I know it). I don't believe I ever screwed up more than that...it kinda reinforced the fact that my jobs thus far has not provided me with the necessary skills and knowledge for being successful in this world. The guy still wants me for ad-hoc projects and initiation into his company, though. Now that creates bigger dilemma for me. But, at this point, I think beggars can't be choosers. It may provide opportunity for me to learn something new, which the current jobs can't teach me. But it will be tough...gosh.
I do wonder, however, if the "iron rice bowl" still exists in this era. At times I do think I need that.
Anyhow, this was not the first time it happened, but I was pretty annoyed yesterday at the manner in which I was treated by some elders here. We all arrived at the same time for work and I smiled and said hi, but the personnel did not appear as if he has seen me. A few months ago, he offered a ride to my colleague and I and we accepted. I noticed that he had a phone attached to his car and commented on it. No response. I felt like a fool. Then it happened again yesterday. Well, lets just say that I'm not about to let it happen a 3rd time. He is not the only person who does that. This place makes me wonder, what is the use of being up there if you have your nose in the clouds as well?? Don't you remember that perchance you might have been like me in the past? Why do you extend so-called kindness and courtesy only to the rich and famous? Do you still live in the illusion of past glories? I'm fed up. Period.
Sent in my notification letter 2 weeks ago. Instead of relief, however, I felt more lost than before. I was recommended for a job and went for the meet-up session (it felt more like that than an interview as I know it). I don't believe I ever screwed up more than that...it kinda reinforced the fact that my jobs thus far has not provided me with the necessary skills and knowledge for being successful in this world. The guy still wants me for ad-hoc projects and initiation into his company, though. Now that creates bigger dilemma for me. But, at this point, I think beggars can't be choosers. It may provide opportunity for me to learn something new, which the current jobs can't teach me. But it will be tough...gosh.
I do wonder, however, if the "iron rice bowl" still exists in this era. At times I do think I need that.
Anyhow, this was not the first time it happened, but I was pretty annoyed yesterday at the manner in which I was treated by some elders here. We all arrived at the same time for work and I smiled and said hi, but the personnel did not appear as if he has seen me. A few months ago, he offered a ride to my colleague and I and we accepted. I noticed that he had a phone attached to his car and commented on it. No response. I felt like a fool. Then it happened again yesterday. Well, lets just say that I'm not about to let it happen a 3rd time. He is not the only person who does that. This place makes me wonder, what is the use of being up there if you have your nose in the clouds as well?? Don't you remember that perchance you might have been like me in the past? Why do you extend so-called kindness and courtesy only to the rich and famous? Do you still live in the illusion of past glories? I'm fed up. Period.
Labels: Rambles, Saya Affairs
// posted by Jenn @ 11:10 AM 
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